I had my Civil Procedure final Tuesday. Wednesday I was so tired I could barely study for Contracts today. I went to bed at 8pm and didn't get up until Mr. D dragged me out of bed at 6am.
Mr. D's been kind of worried about me. He says I seem really defeated.
In the old days (because it DOES feel like eons ago), when I would finish a test, I would feel like a champion. I would have complete confidence in myself. I'd feel like a champion, like I'd kicked that test's ass.
My non-law school acquaintances eagerly ask me how I did on my test. My reply is, "Well, I don't think I failed it."
This feeling sort of reminds me of how I felt after my first upper level history exam. I made a B+ and my study partner made a C. Neither of us had made such low grades on essay exams before. We got our grades back, reconfigured our study strategy and I made an A+ on my final in that class.
The Torts tutor gave us a finals study schedule that began the month before school ended. We were supposed to study for the last final 3-5 hours a day for that week, then switch to the second to last final the next week, etc. Well, that week sucked for me study-wise. It took me that week to figure out how I wanted to prepare. My second week was better. By the third and fourth week I had my plan down. That was Contracts and Civil Procedure. I still didn't feel prepared enough for Civil Procedure.
I'm worried about Crim Law and Torts. They're on Monday and Wednesday, only three days after this.
Like I said earlier, I don't think I'll fail. But that's all I think. It makes me sad.
I know what to do for next semester to feel more prepared by this point. I feel confident that by then I'll be able to do far better.
Unfortunately, everything seems to ride on this semester. That stinks.
I'm a good student. I work hard and study a lot. I just need to focus the whole semester on preparing for the exam.
And don't get me started on how almost nothing in class helped me for the exam.